Things have been a whirlwind for me the last few months.  Here’s just a few things that have happened:

• My mom got married.
• In NEW YORK CITY!
• I got an apartment.
• I packed up 26 years worth of crap and am now waiting to move
• I found my soulmate current man friend
• My ex decided he’d like to try things over again
• My best friend had to put her dog to sleep last week and may very well have to put another one to sleep today.

My best friend putting her dog to sleep really hit me hard.  I felt like my dog was put down and I was so sad that I didn’t get to say goodbye.

The current man friend is so hot and cold with me that I feel like I’m stuck in the middle of a Katy Perry music video.  I know that he cares about me, but he’s so busy ALL THE TIME.  We never get to hang out and even though he says cute things to me, tells me he misses me and is most of the time there for me.  He will disappear for days without a text.  When he does this I feel like crap and get really depressed.  Then, when he pops back up it makes me happy and I tend to feel better.

Of course as soon as my ex finds out I am seeing/talking/dating to someone he gets upset and jealous.  And I start getting texts that say:

“I never meant to hurt you”

“Just give me one more chance”

“I love you always”

It is so frustrating because it would be so easy for me to go back to him and start a life with him.  The trust isn’t there yet (again?), but he has been my best friend for years and I have a hard time letting go of him.  Blah.

Oh, and I told the current man friend about him and a huge fight began but unless he is willing to give me a commitment then I am not going to stop talking to my ex.

Blah, frustrating times.

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