Things have been a whirlwind for me the last few months.  Here’s just a few things that have happened:

• My mom got married.
• In NEW YORK CITY!
• I got an apartment.
• I packed up 26 years worth of crap and am now waiting to move
• I found my soulmate current man friend
• My ex decided he’d like to try things over again
• My best friend had to put her dog to sleep last week and may very well have to put another one to sleep today.

My best friend putting her dog to sleep really hit me hard.  I felt like my dog was put down and I was so sad that I didn’t get to say goodbye.

The current man friend is so hot and cold with me that I feel like I’m stuck in the middle of a Katy Perry music video.  I know that he cares about me, but he’s so busy ALL THE TIME.  We never get to hang out and even though he says cute things to me, tells me he misses me and is most of the time there for me.  He will disappear for days without a text.  When he does this I feel like crap and get really depressed.  Then, when he pops back up it makes me happy and I tend to feel better.

Of course as soon as my ex finds out I am seeing/talking/dating to someone he gets upset and jealous.  And I start getting texts that say:

“I never meant to hurt you”

“Just give me one more chance”

“I love you always”

It is so frustrating because it would be so easy for me to go back to him and start a life with him.  The trust isn’t there yet (again?), but he has been my best friend for years and I have a hard time letting go of him.  Blah.

Oh, and I told the current man friend about him and a huge fight began but unless he is willing to give me a commitment then I am not going to stop talking to my ex.

Blah, frustrating times.

So, I don’t think I’ve mentioned on here before but I LOVE BABIES!!  However, in the last few years I have welcomed more children than I know what to do with.  My brother and his wife recently welcomed a new addition to their family.

Raegan Jane

Random cool story about her name, Raegan, not Jane.  Since I was 12 I have had names picked out for my children.  Raegan was one of them.  When they had Brooklyn they were thinking of naming her Raegan and I pitched a fit.  That was my name and I don’t care who this kid was…she wasn’t getting my name.  Anyway, with this one, after seeing how much I adore Miss Brooklyn I thought it’d be okay to go ahead and give up my name.  So I sent an email to my brother, sister in law and mom for good measure…relinquishing my rights to the name.  Then, on January 26, 2011…this beautiful little baby entered my life.  Unlike her sister she had hair when born, and not just any hair…dark hair.  Her eyes?  Well they’re brown.  It’s so strange how siblings can look different.  Here she is with her big sister Brooklyn!

Also, on the 17th I welcomed a pseudo niece into the world.  I was present for her birth and was amazed at the emotions that came up.  I have been friends with Carrie for probably 20 years and when I lived in Utah we were roommates.  This was her first child, a beautiful little girl.

Chloe Jane

She is a sweet little snuggle bug and loves to curl up on your chest.  I have been over just about every other day to snuggle her.  I am so lucky to have these friends that let me have a part in their kids lives.

As for me, kids won’t be happening for a bit…if at all.  Not that I don’t want them but…after seeing a birth…I think I am scarred for life.  :)

Things have been going great with Weight Watchers. The first week I lost 4 pounds and this week I lost 1.4 pounds. So total loss is 5.4 lbs. I still haven’t had a perfect week which is starting to bother me so this week is going to be my week.

My goals are to track and to work on being active for at least 10 minutes a day. I haven’t worked out once since I started because I’m a horrible person been super busy with school.  However, I dropped two of my classes because they were just going to be too much for me and am now taking 12 hours.  I am excited for the extra time I have.

I have a lot I need to work on, but I think this week will go alright and I’m expecting a big loss next week!

In case you were curious here were my stats from weight watchers from joining to current, I will also update my weight log.

1/11/11 ~ 237.8

1/18/11 ~ 233.8

1/25/11 ~ 232.4

I totally forgot to post this on Sunday, AKA weigh day. So here are my stats:

Starting Weight: 233.6 lbs

Previous Week’s Weight: 229.6 lbs

Current Weight: 230.8 lbs

Loss/Gain: +1.2 lbs

Total Loss/Gain: -2.8 lbs

The holiday season is killing me and this week is going to be even worse. I’ve had Christmas with my dad, then I have two days of Christmas with my mom and Aunt…then I am pretty sure I have to go down to my grandparents next week.

Sigh, someday I will be able to have a normal diet week…just don’t know when that will be.